Why?

Oh, such a loaded, small, three-letter question…There is no other way to answer this question, than to simply submit to you the essay I wrote when I applied to Midwives College of Utah (MCU). It has been edited to shorten it for readers and to update some information.

“I believe midwifery is the gateway to a healthy baby but more particularly to a healthy birth. While a mother can definitely have a healthy baby in-hospital, she will have a higher chance of having a satisfying, healthy birth outcome at home. This leads me to have three main reasons why I am passionate about midwifery: I have had five home births with a midwife. I have been a doula at home births and hospital births. Finally, there is no one serving the Latina, Spanish-only speaking people in my community.

My midwifery path began with the birth of my own children. My first child was born via Cesarean surgery because she was in the breech presentation, and I was receiving care from an OB. My second child was a successful VBAC in-hospital, but was a highly managed birth. I was introduced to midwifery with my third pregnancy through an apprenticing midwife. That was the birth that changed my world, and led me into becoming a doula. I eventually had four more home births, for a total of five home births and three hospital births.

For my own birthing options, there is no other method of birth that can top having a home birth surrounded by a birth team of my choosing. My midwife soon became an independent midwife and asked me if I would like to attend births as a doula/assistant to the midwife. I was more than elated to participate as a doula/assistant. Although, I never provided any prenatal care, during births I attended births as an assistant to the midwife and a doula to the mother. I never caught a baby, but I was fortunate to have this opportunity for seven years, until the midwife moved out of town. I learned a lot about midwifery during this time, and it opened up my heart to a further understanding of the importance of midwifery and home birth options.

After the midwife with whom I was working, moved away, I became a hospital birth doula. This was a difficult transition. Witnessing the difference in care was astounding. The lack of personal one-on-one care from a main care provider was disheartening.

My desire was that all women who could and wanted, should have access to midwifery care. Yet, I still did not know that I had the capacity to become a midwife, because my own children were very young. I knew that I could not possibly take on the responsibility of being a midwife and being a mother to young children simultaneously. Additionally, I thought midwifery could not be something for me because I had no higher level education. I completely put it out of my mind, and continued serving women and families as a doula.

However, as the years progressed, I began to see a huge lack of diversity within the birth community in my city. I began to feel a sense of sadness knowing that very few women of color were being offered the MMC (Midwives Model of Care) or home birth options in my community. I did some research and found that women of color are underserved in the area of home birth options. It completely coincided with what I was seeing in my own city. I knew that no one in the Spanish-only speaking community was being served. I did not know what to do about this, or how to change this.

As my soul began to be burdened for the people of my Latino community, I became friends with a doula near my city who was studying to become a midwife. She has seven children, and was able to continue with midwifery schooling while parenting her children. Eventually, I began asking her questions about midwifery and how she handled going to college while being a mother and wife. She answered all my questions, encouraged me to look further into midwifery, and provided me with a bunch of links to read. This was the beginning of my calling into midwifery. Well, actually, this was the beginning of me finally listening and heeding to the calling.

With the help of my friend, she encouraged me to look into MCU for my midwifery education. MCU offers continuing education courses without the obligation of full enrollment. I decided to take four continuing education classes during the 2015 winter semester. It was a great method in helping me finalize and solidify my thoughts regarding the midwifery call. It was also a great way to help me see if distance education works for me. I thoroughly enjoyed the courses! My mind was blown away with all the new knowledge gained regarding health disparities women of color (WoC) face, maternal and infant morbidity and mortality rates among WoC, specifically African American women. Summer 2015, I took three additional continuing education courses through MCU to further my midwifery education. I learned that distance education, the structure of MCU, and the availability of the instructors works exceptionally well for my style of learning. These continuing education courses further assisted me in making my decision to pursue the midwifery profession.

After doing some further research, talking with my husband and children, seeking the Lord’s direction, and doing some soul-searching, I knew I had been called into midwifery! With all the knowledge I had learned in the last couple years, including winter semester, 2015, regarding health disparities in WoC, breastfeeding rates being lower for WoC, my children being older and more independent (not needing me for everything), my heart, soul, and mind moved into accepting this new role for my life.

It thrills me so much that I might be able to bring something to my large city that has never in the history of its existence had such a service from a Latina person. It is high time that my county, city and community had a Latina, Spanish speaking midwife providing the Midwives Model of Care to its Spanish-only speaking residents!

Ten years from now, I see myself as a midwife who has thrown the doors open wide for those who have never had the opportunity to have midwifery care due to a language barrier.I see my legacy being one of a woman who made home birth and midwifery accessible to a larger population of underserved and underrepresented people.”

 

Student-Midwife, Fall 2015

August, 2015, I became a full-time student enrolled at Midwives College of Utah. My life and the life of my family has been turned into a life of college with a mom of eight children (3 adults, 3 teens, 1 pre-teen, and a 7 year old) and wife who does school work 6-8 hours a day, six days a week.

I’ll tell the story of a Midwife in Progress for several reasons. It will be a way to document and show me how far I’ve come from the moment I decided to follow this path. You, the audience, will see the progress it takes to become a certified professional midwife (CPM). You’ll see the difficulties, tears, joys, setbacks, accomplishments, disappointments, and anything else that comes in the path of a student-midwife. There will be plenty of opportunities to feature other student-midwives and midwives, giving them a platform to tell their own stories in their own words. Finally, I’ll also upload my school work papers, client-handouts, and write about anything I find pertinent.

Once licensing and certification is accomplished in approximately 3-4 years, a midwife continues to learn and grow through continued education, research, and with every birth she witnesses. A midwife never ceases to progress. Thus, she is forever a Midwife in Progress.

Some posts will be long and meaningful, and some will be short and quick, depending on how busy I am with school and family life. So, follow along in this long journey towards midwifery certification and eventually the full midwifery role.

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This was the first day of midwifery college. I had to do the whole “first day of school picture.”